Questions of the Heart

I don’t know how true this is for every person. But I do know it’s true for some, and it’s especially true for me. I’ll begin by asking a rhetorical question of sorts: Do you constantly dream of having a life that makes sense, in other words a life in which you have a job you love, no regrets about your life's choices, (or at least just a handful and no more), and then finally someone who you know loves you more than life itself?

Have you ever looked out of your window and seen a Kodak moment in real life- a gorgeous girl tossing back her head and laughing at something that a look-a-like prince charming just said to her? Ever wish you were in that scenario? I do, all the time. There’s the subway- looking across and seeing an older couple helping each other off at their stop and holding on to each other as they find their way to their destination. Ever wonder if that could be you? In other words, are you a romantic or a realist? Do you romanticize everything, or are you realistic about life and the moments it gives you? Maybe a little bit of both?
Have you ever wanted to be different, but found it harder to change than you originally thought? It's like going on a diet, but not being able to stay on it for more than a few weeks because it's just so different, in an uncomfortable sort of way... Perserverance takes on a whole new meaning when you try to push through something that's long, drawn out, and just keeps getting harder. It's easy when it's just for a little while, but when it turns into a never ending process it gets discouraging, and before you know it you're waking up one morning and realizing you've gone back to the way it all was before you tried changing.
Or did you wake up one morning and realized that your former character, the one that was a dare-devil, loved the truth, and skipped instead of walking (just because it was more fun), was now gone, that somehow that part of yourself had died, and instead now you resemble one full of fear, preferred to walk as slowly as possible, and was more pessimistic than you ever thought possible for a person to be?