This year has been a year of first times for me. Some good, some not. The most recent first time for me was my little brother was admitted to the hospital this past Monday. Two brain aneurisms. That's not exactly something you see every day in your family. One of the aneurisms is 4 cm. long. It's nothing light, it's pretty major, both my older brother and I were called home. Family and friends have flown and driven in from all over the United States and elsewhere. And that is good, but it's hard, it shows just how serious this all is.
I feel dissociated from it all, like I can't really fully be here, if I am I'm not sure I'd be able to handle it. My body just feels like it's floating somewhat. I want to run, but I want to stay as close to my brother as possible. I want to be comforted by friends and at the same time want to be completely by myself, with maybe just my Bible for comfort. There's so many different emotions, so much to sift through, it's hard, overwhelming. How will we get through?
I lift my eyes up, up to the mountains, where does my help come from? My help comes from You, Maker of Heaven, Creator of the earth. Oh how I need You Lord, You are my only Hope, You are my only Prayer. So I will wait for You to come and rescue me, to come and give me Life.
"Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
- Isaiah 40:28-31
Truth heals. Don't you think so? The truth of what is, what was, and what will be, it's healing for the soul and a comfort beyond words. The Lord's peace, what greater thing is there on this earth other than His Love? What greatness, what awesomeness, what power!
"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4:4-7
If you wouldn't mind being in prayer for my brother I would deeply appreciate it, the link to his blog and updates on him is on this page, called "Praying Him Through." Praise Him, and God bless.
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